That was the post I began yesterday. I never finished it because other, "more important", things came up. At this moment I can't even remember what they were but I'm sure I wasn't pleased. It was a bad day yesterday. A day where I wanted to climb back in bed and go to sleep and wake up a better person. Unfortunately, life doesn't go that way, especially when you have kids. I sulked. I barked. I was mean. And even though I never said those things I was screaming on the inside, I'm sure my face said it all. Poor children from my womb...I can be such a beast - a big hairy, ugly, smelly beast. Yet they seemed oblivious. They still danced around, climbed on my lap, and clambered up to give me a kiss. I guess they didn't realize that they aren't invited to my pity parties. Yet even their party crashing didn't change me, I still seethed.
It wasn't until later when I was speaking to another homeschooling mom that I was encouraged. She told me the same things other moms had been telling me for months - try block learning. (Block learning is where you just do all the required weekly lessons for a particular subject in one day). This method of teaching sounds appealing to me, but I have also been told that certain subjects should be taught every day. So, I chimed in that I couldn't do it because I was told Math and Spelling should be done everyday. Her reply gave me tremendous hope. She said, "You are homeschooling, Erica. You do whatever works for you." Why at that moment the clouds parted, I'm not sure. I haven't even tried it yet, but I didn't dread starting the day as much. I think it might actually work for me - for us. I spoke with the kids about it today and they seemed excited too. So on Monday we start our new schedule, maybe homeschooling attempt #547 will work. Fingers are crossed and instead of quitting...I'm pushing on!