Thursday, October 22, 2009

Gripes of a Preggo

I am officially 32 weeks pregnant! What this is supposed to mean is that I only have 8 weeks left until I meet the newest member of our family. I however, seem to always go late and so I am not planning on making introductions until around 10 weeks.

The third trimester is upon me. I realize I have been in the third trimester for over a month now, but just the past week or so it has really come upon me. I'm tired - that's a given. My back is so sore I visited the chiropractor this week. My crotch feels as if someone has placed a vice inside of it and is slowly (and painfully) spreading it apart, hence my walk becoming more of a waddle. The varicose veins in my legs ache all day now and if someone accidentally bumps them I'm on the floor in pain. My belly is stretched and heavy and has that squeezing feeling several times a day (gotta love braxton hicks). My feet are beginning to swell slightly and my once slender toes are beginning to resemble Lil' Smokies by 9 o'clock at night. My seemingly stable mood has begun to resemble playground equipment, some days I'm fine and the next I'm crying, no make that sobbing, over stupid things like applesauce being thrown away. Yes the third trimester is here, and in a way that I am not used to!

To make matters even worse, I failed my glucose test again! I failed the first time by seven points, took the 3-hour test and passed with flying colors. I took the 28 week test a little late and failed by 3 points. I am awaiting the call from the doctor. I'm not sure if he will make me do a three hour test again, or if they are just going to call me diabetic and put me on the stinking diet. I guess I shouldn't have eaten that Costco-sized bag of peanut M&M's last week by myself. My theory of protein and sugar canceling one another out has been canceled out.

I don't want to be the complaining pregnant lady, I know no one wants to hang out with her, but I'm a little disappointed. Disappointed that this might be it. This might be the last time my body (or rather my mind) can handle carrying a little one inside of me. That means this will be the last time to feel a baby kicking my stomach, from the inside at least. The last time I will see my body grow to accommodate God's beautiful blessing, unless we can count M&M's as a blessing. The last time Brian and I will ponder baby names. The last time I will hear Brian say, "It's a....". The last time... Even if this uterus is done, I am thankful for the chance I have been given to carry life inside of me six times. And if it's not I pray that I could do it again with His strength and grace....and that I will be allowed to eat as many M&M's as I want.

9 comments:

Catherine Anne said...

(Hugs) Know that most of us go through this. Its such a hard time in our lives but before long that tiny beautiful life will be looking up at you with all the love you share between mother and a child! Prayers~

Tonya said...

Pregnancy STINKS. I feel your pain and am having horrible memories of myself a little over a year ago (throw in a move at 32 weeks - a 5 day drive - living in my aunt's house for 4 weeks - a house with no air conditioning and the temps in the 90's - and then moving into my own house at 36-1/2 weeks). Oh, I think I'm going to be sick. Eric, GET AWAY FROM ME! :-)

A year later, I look at this gorgeous little girl and wonder similar things, "is this it?" Thanks for the reminder of the HELL it is when I am pregnant. Lord willing, she's my last. :-)

We will pray for you!

Riahli said...

I just had my baby girl two weeks ago so that last trimester is still fresh in my head...oh the pain, the overwhelming tiredness, the wacky emotions...not fun! I've only had three pregnancy's and I am so done, I truly don't think my body would stay together if I tried for another, I felt like it was falling apart this time around, I still feel like it's falling apart! :) Excited for you though, your baby will soon be here! It's easy to forget the yucky stuff when you gaze into those beautiful baby eyes!! :)

Nichol said...

Thanks for coming by and following my blog. I wanted 4 children and due to 2 easy pregnancies but 2 hard deliveries I've decided it's best to stop. Congrats on being almost there. 3rd trimester was never fun for me.

Shiloah Baker said...

LOL on the m&m's! Complain all you want. I sure do understand! It gets very tiring near the end. (((hugs)))

Jenn said...

So beautifully written -I really tried to savor all those aches and pains realizing that would be my last time with life inside me. My doctor just kept saying with every pregnancy you feel more aches and pains so I cannot even imagine how you must feel. I can say it's all worth it when you look into that your newborns eyes! Love ya and hope things get a little better for you for these last couple of weeks!

Jessica said...

Oh, so beautiful. The good, the bad, the ugly of pregnancy.....it's such a beautiful miracle.

The little one is coming! I'm so excited for you!

Tonya said...

You really need to post. Seriously. You're NOT 32 weeks preggo anymore. We want a post about baby, labor, life with 6, homeschooling/cooking/housekeeping with 6... Am I helping you with ideas at all?

I do hope all is going great for you!

Elisabeth- Truly Blessed said...

Oh, I hope you're doing well with a new little one? You are so blessed- I love the title of your blog!! Can't wait to add more angels to our crew.
In Him,
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