It's been almost four weeks since Jace and Brynna left to drive across country with my parents. They were on the road for 10 days and now they are residing in my old abode with my folks. I miss them terribly. Yes, I miss the huge help they are to me, but most of all I miss them and the way we laugh together. We talk almost daily, but conversations are different over the phone than they are in real life. Situations aren't nearly as funny when they happened five hours previously and you are trying to relive them via Bell's greatest invention. What would have had us crying because we were laughing so hard, now conjure only a chuckle as we try to picture it in our mind's eye.
Often I try to imagine them back there in my childhood home, as I share with them what I used to like to do and the places I would go. I wish I were back there with them to physically show them so I could see their expressions and re-live it all again. It had been over four years since they had seen Lightening Bugs and I wonder if Brynna's eyes lit up just as bright when she saw them again. I also wonder if they see me back there. When they hang out with my mom and sisters, do they see me in their eyes, in their actions? Do they notice that my dad breaks into song at the mention of phrases, just like their mom? Do they notice the similarities in my brother and my humor? Are they hearing stories of when their dad and I were children and does it give them any insight to who we are now? I'm sure it doesn't. It's only now when I listen to the stories of my own parents youth that I can make the connection that these two people in their golden years were once children. Even in my own life, it seems almost unfathomable that it is possible that I am the little girl in the pictures in my albums.
In two more weeks Sadie and I will hop a plane to go and pick them up. I'm counting down the days. In my head I'm running at them like a lonely husband from Wife Swap who finally realizes what he has been missing, but I'm sure Jace and Brynna will greet me with sauntering sideways hugs and a "hi, mom". I will take what I can get, as long as I get them.